AwoosWhenClose

The instance is using an old version of Lemmy and I've not seen the admin in a while, so it might be a bit dead I'm afraid.

A mixture of desktop and mobile using Jerboa for me. Tried Boost, but it didn't really seem to have much that I wanted, tbh.

For my SFW account I browse by subscribed and new, wheras here I browse by local and new (since there's not much other than smut here. :P).

I also have apps and extensions to time limit my use of it because Lemmy and Mastodon have kinda given me an unhealthy relationship with social media. I'm the type to obsess over drama and the Fediverse has no shortage of it. I kinda let it consume my life for a bit which was... Not great.

Hi, figure I'll post some here as well. Meant to do this when I saw it, but things got in the way. Anyway, enjoy a short list I may add to in the future:

• Maëfeline - Mostly focused on the gloopy drippy living latexy stuff.
• 100racs - Latexy bondage clothes. Mostly male focusing on nullges and chastity. Really nice detailing.
• Evilbanana - 3D Rendering and animations, mostly of their Vaporeon character.
• Poiuytrew - Latex clothing and a bit of pooltoy/living suit as well.

Of course, I'd also like to shill [email protected]. :P There's a few artists that post occasional latex stuff that I haven't listed here, so go check that community out. My tastes also focus on bondagy stuff, which is why most of the stuff there is bondagey. Just to clarify: If anyone wants to post some vanilla stuff over there, feel free! Even if it's just something like a fur wearing latex clothing.

I seem to remember reading somewhere that they usually put computer fans in them, but I don't know if that's true.

That is something I need to work on, yes. I'm very stubborn and just keep hitting my head against the wall, thinking about things until a problem drops out. Burning myself out trying to find a solution to a problem which I can't solve. There are people out there with a lot more resources and a lot more energy fighting on my behalf out there, and I should just let them do it.

I still have no idea how people can seemingly be happy, posting memes, enjoying themselves in fursuits and then switch to posting serious concerns about things that directly affect their wellbeing, and then back to posting pictures of their 'sona naked. It feels like people have some kind of magical "switch" in their head that allows them to postpone and not worry about these things, that my autistic brain just lacks.

Anyway, thanks for helping me out, even though I'm effectively just a stranger. I appreciate it.

The more I read about this payment stuff, the more upsetting it is, ugh. I know it's partly due to liability concerns rather than necessarily puritan stuff, but still.

It really sucks that most adult stuff skirts under the gaze of all powerful companies that control people's livelihoods.

Maybe in future someone will see the gap in the market for a kink friendly payment processor or bank and make one. But that seems like wishful thinking.

(Extra content warning: Eugenics)

Thankfully here we do seem to be more friendly to lgb people, or at least in the places I frequent.

Although, our government did pull out an old law to violate sovereigny to block some pro-trans legislation here... So, that happened I guess.

I can kinda relate to the fear of being punished or disappeared though... I'm autistic, and one of the things that the leading anti-autism charities wanted to do is create a generic database in order to screen for it.

Ended up arguing for a week straight with a close friend about how this was completely unacceptable. Arguing for your own existence is not a fun thing to do, especially when you're not that confident about it yourself... It's a big part of this mental mess I'm in now...

Anyway, sorry for rambling a bit there. While we're criticising instances, I'd like to call out madtodon.art for simultaneously claiming to be a safe space whilst also trying to push out trans and furry folk.

I guess I keep posting these kinds of things, in various names and places, in the hope of finding that one "nugget of hope". That one piece of information that can prove to me that maybe everything isn't so bad. That the mental prison I trap myself in isn't real. That... Doesn't seem likely with this, and I really don't know how to handle it.

I need hope, I need coping mechanisms, I need something to stop these unhealthy behaviours. Hell at this point I'll take hugs or hedpats.

And yes, I do see professional help and I think it works. But at the same time... I do feel like I'm living "paycheck to paycheck" with appointments.

I truly do appreciate the people here who help out and be friendly and give me a nice safe space, so thank you.

I wouldn't take it personally, to be honest. A lot of these downvotes are from people on other instances who just downvote furry stuff as a matter of policy, everything here gets one or two downvotes. The things that stay downvoted tend to be those that are on unpopular communities where people just don't see them.

And yeah, it does suck and feel bad.

Was looking at spicy flash games, found that one about seducing a fox girl on the beach, got confusing feelings and now here I am, many years later.

Oh my god. You're wearing a suit that, I assume, absorbs moisture like a sponge.

Why would you lean against the space between two urinals?

I like "Giffit".

Pronounced "Yiffit" of course.

(I also assume everyone has seen that meme).