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You're talking at me, lying to me and trying to dictate reality to me. You don't respect me an an equal person - you think of me as an infinite "less than" that you need to dominate with your lies.
I was raised by some of the most abusive people on the planet - enough to be jailed today - and surrounded exclusively by abusive peers.
I did care, but you assholes taught me that caring about people who wanted me dead was a suicide pact. No one ever cared about me - not my parents, not my childhood peers, no school faculty. You motherfuckers demonstrated over fifteen years that my caring would be actively mocked as "stupid" and "retarded" and that I would be punished until I was capable of physically breaking my punishers. You all did that - not me. You all made sure no one would ever care about me, even going so far as to kill yourselves to guarantee it. You are quasi-religious zealots, dedicate to the cause of hate.
I'm sorry. Have you considered that they are perhaps not representative of the whole of humanity?
Let's say someone actually wanted to help you. Let's say they truly believed that going outside and interacting with people in person would do you good. How should such a person express their feelings and try to help while acknowledging you, respecting your humanity, and treating you as of equal value as a human?
They wouldn't last long enough - they'd be murdered, or at least disabled, by the other narcissists in society. Such a person would be an obvious "freak" and face the exact same "punishment" as I have faced my entire life - except they don't have the experience that I do, and fall for one of their cons. That's when they'd be killed.
Narcissists rule this planet with an iron fist. There is no escape, and no effective counter.
I would like to act like such a person. How would I do that? (I do want to help you, but I don't think you would believe me)
Are you happy?
It seems like you are lashing out randomly and have a world view that everything is orchestrated to harm you.
You believe that people have killed themselves to make your life worse? I don't want to sound mean, but you aren't the only person.
No, I'm not a happiness addict. Happiness is not the goal - it's the failure state. Happiness means I've become an abusive monster, like you.
I know. They've done the same to and for other people. Bigotry affects millions of people - I'm simply an equal one of those affected.
I'm simply trying to convince people that I"m an equal one of them, but their bigotry makes them refuse to accept that - just as it does to the equality of many others. The only difference between me and other victims of bigotry is that I don't belong to a group.
That's a wild take man. Like what are you talking about? Can you tell me exactly what I've done to be an "abusive monster"? Could you elaborate on how happiness is only the result of being abusive?
Happiness is like a drug; it is addictive, and "taking" it loses effectiveness over time. This means every person needs to do more extreme things to achieve the same happiness. Eventually, they need to start abusive others in order to achieve the same "high".
You may not be actively abusive yet, but you have to quit cold-turkey and run directly away from happiness in order to avoid the grip it will gain on you.
I'm going to disagree with you. I have found it takes less to make me happy as I get older. Moreover, my happiest moments are those where others are happy. I take no pleasure in harming others and I don't believe that's a unique perspective.
I think your coping mechanisms have made your life more difficult.