FearsomeJoeandmac

I meant just In a purely aesthetic sense haha.

I already wash my ass and all that. I hate being dirty.

Wow. dagger in the heart lol. I suppose I should go for a shitty acting career then.

My dad's of English ancestry and my mom's native if anyone's curious

Thanks pal

Hey thanks man... I appreciate it. I mean do catch women checking me out and shit... the typical stare or smile where they want you to come say hi.

I just suspect I'm somewhere on the spectrum. So it's very very hard for me approach them. I think people here would understand sometimes being neuro divergent is hard for dating life

You there?

Honest answers. I don't really care

I think she was scared of getting close to anyone at the moment regardless of whatever. We talked for fucking hours.. one time for 14 hours... we had phone sex lame as it is... and both climaxed on the phone together. So she was interested she said she liked my accent... she cried tears of appreciation one time because she was drunk on the phone and I didn't try to take advantage of her by getting nude pics in that state.

As lame as that sounds it was a really nice moment and I had that warm butterfly moment in my stomach the whole time. I have no idea what changed....

I have to think she was just scared of how close a "long distance relationship" was getting

God I'll miss her so much, God it hurts

I just think she was scared of getting too close... she hinted that she was scared of us getting too close. "we are too invested in each other she's afraid and that I should focus on my drug treatment. And she should focus on her studies.

We had some good times and some really romantic nights talking. Got intimate over the phone a couple times. That felt good, as lame as it is.

Thanks, I just need friends who can help me examine this and not go crazy

I'm just trying to figure out why she randomly cut me off? Things were going well. We loved talking so much. She just stated she was afraid we were getting too invested in each other.

I'm wondering if she knew that's the only way we could stop obsessing over each other or whatever and so she got rid of the temptation to talk to me

Awesome reply man. No immaturity at all.

Yeah I notice a lot of people are just able to lay in bed and cuddle and laugh about it immediately afterwards, while people like myself will sort of feel gross and shameful for a little bit immediately after any sexual acts. Thanks for not laughing at the cringe its a long distance friendship and it had been a long time since either of us were intimate with anyone.

I was even looking at her kind of like... "gross did I just do this perverted stuff over the phone with her"..

Of course now, later, 'im thinking it was fun and I enjoyed it.

Yes I think it probably is societal condition and the way I was raised

Hahaha if only it were that simple.