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I prefer that money be used for housing. People are mad the games are cancelled but how much angrier would people be if he wasted 6-7 billion for 12 days of athletics.

Today I am 32. I am properly in my 30's now and still have no idea what I'm doing with my life!!! But it's okay because I'm eating cake for breakfast.

In-person interview Friday arvo. Universe, may I please request a small win in the form of a prompt response from this company? thank you

edit: ty for your kind words and emojis - you are all so amazing and beautiful 😭 💜 💜

Lizzo was amazing again ❤️ I struggled with the fact that a lot of the people in my section just did not stand up! It's Lizzo, it's dance music, you gotta stand, dance, and enjoy...so I did. Lol. I did sit more for this one then Mondays concert though. Is this standard for concerts? Because for both Lorde and Harry, we stood the entire time.

Oh no. The Bad Feels (blood rushing to face, starting to feel congested like you're about to cry) started to happen and I've been left hanging after a conversation. Burying my face in the cat isn't helping. What do. I'd eat a pizza if I had any appetite. Maybe I'll shut off the world and get into a good book like I keep threatening to. My eyes are getting too tired for TV...

The man is watching Enter The Dragon. The way he sits there like he hasn't watched it 20 times is pretty impressive.

It has been a rather lovely day today. Six hours work this morning, plus a bit of online shopping for some new shoes. This afternoon I was actually able to get outside in the sunshine and do some planting and weeding. Mr Woof got three walks, so he's pretty happy, and Miss Meow is currently enjoying some lap time (purring like a little engine). Pork rissoles and tray baked vegetable are on the menu for dinner. Plus I don't have to work tomorrow so don't need to get up at any particular time in the morning. I am judging today a success. 🙂

Manifesting my tax return to come through tonight as my ADHD assessment money is officially coming out and I'll have no money until tomorrow night (pay night).

I just microwaved a sweet potato everyone so my recertification for posting here is up to date.

Butter chicken for dins..

Not mine though. Parents scored it from their apparently golf club's kitchen and gave it to me.

All I have to do is reheat it and fuck up the rice.

Phone interview scheduled for this morning, soon.
Might go for a walk later in the afternoon.
For now I'll stay seated drinking my coffee
Waiting for another job to tell me they like me

edit: @[email protected] @[email protected] - went well, in-person interview will be set up soon for the coming days, hopefully I'll be making bank soon ahahha

Fuck. One last bit of paperwork from my old workplace and I'm finally free of it. I'm still undecided as to whether I'll take a bunch of further action against them or not. I have nothing to gain and being vindictive is not in my nature. Justice however is a different matter. I'll seek some psuedo legal advice from one of my best friends who practised law for a long time, he's also been a life coach, mentor and father figure and I've always taken his advice, as it's usually so good.

Walked nearly 10ks yesterday. The body is getting used to it slowly. This sprained wrist is only healing very slowly and may be getting worse again. I bought a better support for it but the new job and constant use of my hands outside it means it's going to be a long haul I think.

Working again today and who knows when for the rest of the week. I'll manage financially for the time being and with any luck won't have to touch my savings. Just going to have live frugally for a while, which is fine. I have almost everything I need, so stopping having a disposable income won't be a big deal. Just have to quit wearing make up and buying expensive skin care products, which is also fine. There's peer pressure from other trans women a lot I find to "pass" meaning people can't know you're trans. It's bullshit pure and simple as far as I'm concerned. I'm happy that for some people that's what they want for themselves, but I've never bought into gender stereotypes and I'm not about to be bullied into starting buying into them. It's also really important to be visible at the moment I think as well. I'm not winning friends by being direct about my response to this, but I'm done with trying to be a people pleaser.

Thanks for reading, journalling here is therapy and its good to be regular with it so I can look back over this time down the track and see what I was doing and feeling and such....

Kthxbyte xo

Hey what do you people think of Dan's decision to axe the com games?

Bit over ordering Didi or Uber 20 minutes before work and they rock up so I'm late to work. So I'm finally contacting a driving instructor who is good for folks with adhd/anxiety so I can get my P's. I guess now I have to save up for a car.

I changed my phone wallpaper, font and icon style last night and it feels like I got a new phone! That scratches that little itch I had. The hardware of my phone is still excellent so there's no need to get a new one.

image is of my phone's sexy first home screen

There’s nothing wrong with rewatching shows/movies if you really enjoy it. Just starting on a rewatch (lost count) of The Mist (2007)… and no I do not recommend the series that came out in 2017

Morning all. I’m stripping my bed to do my sheets

Time to go to bed. Anyone wanna join? I snore but I cuddle good

Feeling a bit weird today. I need something, but I dunno what. It was not a coffee, but hey at least I ruled that out haha

🤖👑

Small insignificant rant. I browse news.com.au. I'm not going to apologise. I want to know if anyone's died or if anything has been recalled. I don't bother about any of the other shit. Occasionally though something might catch my eye. Which brings me to my next rant.

Macca's. Now I love a cheese burger, filet-o-fish and nuggets like any other little piggy but when times are tough and all you have to offer is your shitty little sauces I have to ask "is that it?". How about bringing back your loose change menu? How about your 24 nuggets for $10? Stop with the crumb throwing. Show as a decent deal.

Now reading Kingdom Come, the 1996 DC Comic miniseries.

I feel like I ask bar guy how his day is quite often but I don't really get the same back. If I start talking about something, he will try to listen though.

Is it worth even bringing up that he doesn't ask?

Starting to feel a little more human today, but aside from doing some washing, am forcing myself to continue resting in case I undo all of the good work my resting is doing. Just hoping for some sunshine so I can lie in it for a bit.

Ew just found out my best friend listens to Joe Rogan's motivational stuff. She's a messy person who falls pray to bullshit quite often so I can only imagine she's hanging on every toxic unhelpful word he says.

Ages ago I impulse-purchased the best earbuds you can pretty much get (WF-1000XM4) thinking I could force myself to enjoy them considering so many people like that format of headphone. I've been an over-ear enjoyer for many years and always felt like buds would fall out of my apparently little ear holes. They've been sitting in a drawer pretty much since I bought them but I'm once again trying to use them now that I bought some aftermarket tips which apparently help. Been listening to some folk music while doing the dishes over lunch and it has actually been alright! I still keep fiddling with one of them thinking it feels like it might fall out. Not sure how many others have this weirdness with inner-ear buds.

It is nice not having the weight/heat of the over-ears. I might take these on holiday and see if I can finally get some use out of them.

Meanwhile; kitchen is clean, mixed some chamomile & grapefruit oils into my diffuser and I have a cold drink. I'm ready for this afternoons meetings.

I am eating potato salad.