Facepalm

I was slowly turning him around. And it was working! Pussed out, gave up on him. Still feel bad about it. I might have saved him but for my lack of patience and moral courage.

Don't blame yourself, it really takes a lot of energy and it's not like you're obligated to do that anyway. Besides, it could've never work 100% thus putting you in a kind of co-dependent relationship. Good for you to abandon toxic environment, I think.

Typical, young right-winger, full of rage that the world he had seen and been promised, his grandad's world, his dad's world, was taken from him by "the others".

Oh is that what their problem is I've always wondered what their issue was.

The thing is though both my grandfather and my father worked in coal mines. My grandfather in particular had all sorts of breathing problems and back problems because of this. I never wanted to live in their world. Those idiots have a rose tinted version of a world that never was, they have no idea what it is that they're pining after.

I'm tall and muscular and like tiny women, but I also let them bully and emotionally abuse me. I don't know what that says about me.