Melbourne

The days are getting better. Things I am grateful for :)

Today I got a chocolate covered croissant with a friend. She gave me a gorgeous terrarium with a pink philodendron for my birthday and other pink leafy plants. Without even knowing that I love those plants, she thought it would be perfect for me.

Called a friend from work for an hour.

Cried in a soundproof pod at uni and am so grateful that I got to sit in one of those.

Journalled a bit and realised how grateful I am that I don't have to be anxious anymore waiting for someone to show me that they love me. I also don't have to go around catering to an extremely judgemental and picky person's tastes, like music, movies, places to eat. He was very snobby about these things. I feel so free.

I added items to my achievable bucket list. Visit the DMZ between the Koreas and try pole. Two very different things. For some reason, I went down an internet rabbit hole on North Korea a couple of years ago. Would recommend listening to The Lazarus Heist podcast if you're interested in the DPRK.

I deleted Instagram because I know I would unfortunately stalk my ex and his company. I am no longer doom-scrolling through sad breakup reels and other things that are a waste of time. I have experienced the JOY of missing out. Thought it would be super difficult to give up social media like that but it is helping me live in the present moment. It's so freeing to consume YouTube and movies as opposed to solely short-form mind-numbing content. Gives you more to talk about too. I am keeping in contact with maybe five friends over text and the others? It helps you realise who really has your back. Quality over quantity. My friends have been screenshotting pictures of cute animals to send to me, and although I'm sad I can't return the favour like that, it makes me happy.

Doing my assignments is still really difficult. I will try to apply for extensions.

Tomorrow I am visiting the GP and then the day after, I am touring a gym that's nearby.

I am looking forward to getting myself back. I might cry tomorrow. I might agonise over the future or the past. But whilst it hurts, this change is one of the best things that I think has happened to me. I am so relieved for some reason.

Feel free to add to my list hehehe