[ID: a digital art portrait of a person in profile. they have long wavy brown hair, light brown skin, and a small beard and mustache. They are lit in a bright orange glow. /end ID]
Trying some new things with my digital art process. I'm not entirely happy with this piece but might as well share it anyways.
the original source seems to be this
on a side note, i realized after i had sent the images that the bottom photo accidentally got flipped sideways, lol
I’ve made so many stenciled cloth patches recently and here are some I thought the mega might enjoy 
my two cents i guess
as a tme trans person with some passing familiarity in this discourse i don’t feel particularly offended by these kinds of comments because I know that because of transmisogyny i have structural privilege over tma trans people. so a transfemme making a snarky comment about trans men or afab gq people, even if it dips into some unideal “invalidating gender” territory, isn’t nearly on the same level as the violent transmisogyny that gets perpetrated from those groups.
i’ve yet to read whipping girl which is on my reading list but i think serano discusses the divide between tme/tma trans people a bit too. ultimately i think it’s more important for us tme trans people to deal with transmisogyny in our communities first, because these kinds of comments are just a reaction to the dynamics of unrecognized privilege and violent exclusion in these transmisogynistic trans spaces. idk, just my thoughts though and i don’t want to invalidate your experience with nevada especially as I haven’t read it.
Hmm. While I am fully committed to wanting to medically transition now, it actually took me a while to reach that conclusion because I had a period of a few months literally right before my initial "oh shit" gender questioning moment when I had finally begun to feel like maybe I would be happy being a girl. (Needless to say... I did not stay a girl.)
dysphoria talk
I'm not a binary trans person, but I also am pretty set in my non-binary experience of gender, and it very distinctly isn't in any way related to my agab (I get a lot of dysphoria when gendered as a girl/woman.)
However, for a while when I was first questioning, I thought that I didn't experience a lot of physical dysphoria, just social dysphoria. As a result, I thought that maybe I didn't want to medically transition because I, too, was scare of permanent changes. So during this questioning phase, there were times when I quite liked my more "feminine" body, and times when I wished I had different fat distribution. There were times when I liked my boobs and times when I hated how much they gendered me. But the more I got misgendered, the more uncomfortable I got, and I began to solidify both my experience of physical dysphoria and how I wanted to transition. I know some nonbinary people are okay with getting read as their agab, but I really wasn't.
All in all, it took my about two years to fully decide that I wanted to medically transition, which is where I'm at now. There are still some things that I don't really want to change, though. I very much do not want a penis, so I never pack and I have no intention of getting phalloplasty. Top surgery is still somewhat of a toss-up that I've been waffling on for a while, but I think I'm starting to come down on the side of "yeah get these off" (frankly I wish for velcro boobs, but I think that it's easier for me to just fake having boobs when I want them rather than to bind when I don't.) I also do not really want to pass as a cis manly man, I just really want to stop getting gendered as a woman (which all strangers do to me. I do not pass at all.) Really, what I want is to be confusing.
Idk if any of this helps but I thought I would just word vomit a little. It would be really nice if we could just shapeshift at will, lol.
I'm literally in the process of picking at my nails while scrolling the mega.
bump amber whataboutism
These days I fantasize a lot about moving to China once I finish school. I’m Chinese and speak Mandarin, and frankly I feel that just about every aspect of my life would be 10x easier if I moved there besides access to trans healthcare (though I feel that China is on an upwards trajectory w/ transgender issues so I’m hopeful that things will continue to improve for the better, unlike how it is in 
But I feel that I need to stay in the belly of the beast in order to organize and agitate, which is what I probably will do, and thus I feel selfish for wanting to leave. Idk.
amber whataboutism volcel police
Thank you! I’d love to see your work too
I will try 
[ID: A study of several hands done in acrylic paint. The hands are painted in vibrant, unusual colors instead of skin tones. /end ID]
The title is a joke. I’ve never played Disco Elysium.
[ID: an acrylic painting of two figures on a dark wash background. The model is a fat white person with short curly hair. The figure on the top is kneeling on the floor, leaning back on her right hand while gazing upwards. The figure on the bottom right is sitting on a bench with their head in their left hand. /end ID]
Model credits go to fugitiverabbit on fatphotoref.
[ID: A surrealist black-and-white ink piece showing a variety of strange creatures in shifting concrete blocks. Eyeballs are prominent, with many eyeballs rolling around, piling on top of each other in giant eye sockets looking out open 'windows', zippers in the concrete opening to reveal eyeballs, and eye sockets melting on top of each other over the edges of surfaces. In the top left is a shattered window, with a sculpture of a man with tree branches growing out of his head and a stack of three faces looking out. Below them is a concrete line of many windows, with a hybrid dolphin, snake, and terrier animal leaning out of an open window. The window next to that one is shattered, with eyeballs melting out. The dolphin/snake/terrier has one trunk-like arm stuck in a shallow metal channel with water flowing down it. Below that is another window, where several large eyes are looking out as well as a moose with. many small eyes holding an umbrella in their mouth with an eyeball skewered on it. In the middle right of the picture is a protruding concrete block hanging by two chains from another block on top. A door in this block opens and a veiny worm with a large eyeball on the end of it looks to be slithering out. There are two smaller windows over top of this protruding concrete block, one of which is taped up and another of which shows a woman on the sill with the skin of half of her face lifted up to reveal the organs beneath. All of these eyeballs and creatures are staring at a small person standing in the bottom left, who is in turn looking up at them. /end ID]
Glad you enjoy