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For the first time in my life I had to call some cops, to ask them to step and issue a noise violation. It is nearly 11pm, my family had received the most terrible news that day, and I was on hour 60 of being awake. After what has been the absolute most insane emotional, physical and mental rollercoaster of my life, I finally was drifting into sweet slumber the music began. I tried to fall asleep despite it, but it was no use. This neighbor has been loud before and most times I can ignore it, and sleep through, but this insomnia has a grip on me that I have seen in years.

I went down and knocked on his door and was meet with "WHY YOU POUNDING ON MY Door and man aggressive stepping out. I asked him please I have not slept in two days and I cannot sleep with you music on. He said it sound like I had a personal problem and he slammed he door in my face. The music was turned up instead of down, and Hexbear... I cracked. I am a transwoman living alone, I have been on HRT long enough that my muscle density is gone. I have low ciswoman levels of estrogen in my blood. And this man has menaced me before pounding on my door to accuse me of calling the cops on them on a previous time they were loud, when I had not. They said that I had better not EVER call the cops on him

I had to call 911 and ask them to issue a sound violation. I talked to the cops to give a statement, because frankly, this man scares me. He 6 foot something, towers above my 5"9' seems to always a baclava, when not in his home and is ripped.

And now adrenal is pumping through me and I may be to scared to sleep. I don't want the hallucinations Hexbear, these insomnia waking nightmares again.

Oh god.

Edit: I got like 4 hours of sleep. It's not enough, but it's something.