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It is very stressful, especially coming from a more rural area. It doesn't get too snowy here, but it does go down below freezing in the winter months. I'll just have to get that room cleared one way or another.

Thanks for the interaction. Things are feeling less nightmarish than earlier.

It was just a small idle chat because I was out weeding at the time.

It's okay for us to clean the trailer, but we just can't throw out anything, and there's a lot of stuff.

We've got one room completely cleaned, but the other one is dark, making it hard to see. Both are almost completely without electricity. It's mainly just boxes piled up and black widows throughout. I know I need to make progress on the room before it gets truly cold, but I feel mentally stuck.

I'm so embarrssed and ashamed for losing my shit earlier. It's like I have no control when that happens. Nobody needs a lunatic living next door. I wish I could live in seclusion -_-

Just had a meltdown in the trailer park. Yelled and broke a coffee cup, splashed coffee everywhere.

Still sleeping on the porch, it's cold, my teeth have been hurting and I can't makeart or do anyrhing else I used to like. If I could off myself easily I probably would.

I think 'EEVEE Next' is just the project name for a bunch of modernized changes, but idk.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention that's a good way to use geometry nodes for quick building layouts!

I wonder how difficult it would be to add floor moulding. It might involve needing to get edge data using a script, but it might also be possible to duplicate edges and find them using a special node group...

Looks great! Are you rendering with EEVEE Next?

Regarding the low-res textures: they don't look too bad, but you could always blur the final image a bit and add a VHS filter like others do with Backrooms content. (But then all the other details would be obscured somewhat.)

Meanwhile:

UN aid operations halt in Gaza after Israeli evacuation orders: Official

A top UN official tells reporters the repeated evacuation orders have upended the organisation’s aid operations.

https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2024/8/26/un-aid-operations-halt-in-gaza-after-israeli-evacuation-orders-official

Everyone who gives weapons to Israel (or money to buy weapons) did this. I finally got angry enough to write Biden a letter, but who knows if he actually read it or not (probably not, but I did get a reply). It didn't seem to help much. All the protests aren't helping much. What can the people do to stop the govenment's support of Israel?

I thought it would be okay since I was doing relatively well. Classic rationalization :p At least I'm doing better now. Did some yard work and chatted with a neighbor a bit, which made me feel normal-ish. I just need to stay away from weed until a distant future time when I'm alone. Thankfully I still don't want to drink.

Thanks for replying~

I should not have smoked weed yesterday. The the horrible truth of my situation came crashing down: it's weird for me to live here in the trailer park, not working, living on the fricking porch and hanging out here all day.

I'm stuck. My anxiety is high and I don't want to go anywhere most of the time. I can hear people's thoughts sometimes, or so it seems. I can't drive, and the only other option is walking, or riding a bike which is in disrepair and in storage.

There is no other place for me. Rent's too high everywhere. I spent so long being a hermit and now I just don't want to deal with this. I feel like an alien no matter where I am, but it's even worse here.

F landlords. They can upend your life at snap of their money-grubbing fingers and not give a sht whatsoever.

Only eight :|

One time when I worked at a hardware store, I was loading concrete bags for a woman and I asked her, "you wanted eight?" to confirm how many she requested. She asked back, "do I want a date??" Anyway, I was too shy to pretend that I was asking her out, so this comment is only sort of about dating.

Yikes :S They didn't do that to me, but they did 'correct' my left-handedness in preschool. I'm now only slightly ambidextrous, but I did discover I can write with my left hand... backwards. It's sloppy, but every stroke is a mirror image of what I write with my right hand...