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1. Understand the value of money. The buyers remorse for overpriced hardware may be unpleasant but it's a good lesson. Money doesn't buy you happiness, but it can't save you from despair. Spend wisely.
2. Get off social media
3. Get off social media

For those who think I can enjoy my PC and life. I code, design electronic devices, play with ai. But because of depression, nothing makes me happy. Only when I overdose drugs it is better. Life bbecomes more enjoable. However I can't overdose drugs every day. Sometimes I go outside, walk along a river, but it doesn't help. I still want to die.

I am the OP

If this was my kid, then I’d be grateful. Not that they’re depressed but that they were this open with me. Talking about this shit with someone you love and trust makes a big difference even if they don’t want any advice.

My friend still brags to me about buying the newest top tier Ti graphics card every other year and his water cooling setup, while also saying he can't afford to move out of his parent's house at 30. I spent like $400 on my graphics card, which maxes out basically every game I play. You only need high specs for the very uninspired generic triple A games that get copy and pasted every year. I'm loving Balder's Gate 3 right now without a million dollar rig.

It might sound cliché, but if this is you, have you tried doing... anything else? If this clearly isn't doing it for you?

As someone else mentioned, there's more you can do with a PC than play games, it can be creative or expanding ones own knowledge about computing. Or so something else entirely, I love sitting at my computer for hours doing whatever but sometimes just need to get out and enjoy nature for a bit. Gaming is a nice hobby, especially if you have games or a game that you really enjoy but it's not exactly meaningful or fulfilling. Treat it like watching TV.

Obviously, none of this guarantees success but continuing to do what doesn't make you happy guarantees failure.

Best gaming rig I ever had is unironicly my SteamDeck

The virgin $3000 spender vs the chad $500 budget builder

I only spent $650 (in one big sale) and carried my 1050Ti over. $20 case and I turned the CPU lights off. I feel this (also hit the brakes on buying things), but I gotta say it's nice that I don't use a CPU from 2009 (that I had since 2011) anymore on top of everything.

I try to sometimes maybe do stuff (variably). Like programming or polygonal art in Godot. Currently waiting for the features that I want to coalesce in the same spot, looking at Github about it. I hope 4.2 is closer to that point, and that I make some projects. It's something different at least, constructive.

You could try hentai games. Some are very demanding in hardware, of course i wouldnt know because im a good christian boy.

I didn't feel like playing anything, so I started fiddling with all the different rgb zones I put in when I used to care about that sort of thing. I used openrgb to set my lights to respond to Temp and load of CPU an GPU, so then of course I had to play something demanding to make sure it worked properly, so I found some mods for risk of rain and now I'm into it again.

"Don't worry, it will..."

Never figured out the ending there, but thats what I tell myself.

Well hey, since you're not using it..... Wanna trade? The last game I tried just gave up and my laptop told me I needed a new graphics card.

It'll fulfill me until I finish the game and then lose all interest in gaming for another year.

Download automatic1111 and create AI art. You'll get used to the haters quickly and then you have a hobby that requires a good PC and is fun. Civitai has so many models and stuff you can try. You can even share your creations there with others or train your own model. Depending on your skills you can even get a good job opportunity in that field in near future, as AI is the new big shit. You could look into LLM too if your more into AI chat. Also there's AI supported coding tools, which is going to be another great tool on the belt of every future dev.