Plurality TransID

So, I talk about this a decent bit, but, I'm transendogenic. Just so we're clear here- I say "I" because 'we' are all one, still, so it feels more fitting usually. Now, technically we're traumagenic by our original nature and formation. I don't think time is anything other than a construct, so to say 'we already formed and cannot change our origin' feels like a lie, but regardless... How would we even do it? The best route is separating ourselves from our original formation and trying to function more as a spiritual gateway, like we desire, but we fail to. I think a while ago, forgetting the server name, we were in a server where we were trying to figure out how to allow walk ins, and it simply wasn't working. We ended up with just a bunch of stress splits and damage. If anyone has any help for me/us to reduce our origin dysphoria, or to help us allow walk ins or new spiritually formed headmates (in contrast to just another forced retraumatizing split) please let us know. (It's making me pretty sad as of right now).