Anarchism

I feel worried for you

That makes absolutely no sense! By your admission, you don't know me - how do you benefit from being worried for me?

intimidated by your hostility

How do you think *I* feel by everyone else's hostility? You motherfuckers beat me up individually and in gangs my entire life!

Not one of you socially supported me my entire life - not one. That can't happen on accident - that requires enforcement with an iron fist. Not one of you contradicted the public narrative that I did not belong and needed to die. That is how everyone acted my entire childhood - and continues to act to this day, because why would they magically stop?

How would I even know whether you are like me or not? We know nothing about each other!

You hate me because you know nothing about me. People's hatred of the "other" is based on the fear of the unknown. You don't know me, and you're too mentally weak to understand me, so you fear me - and therefore hate me. That's true of all bigots.

I am not questioning that you have been abused and that it must have been truly horrible.

What makes you think it stopped? What do you think is the enforcement mechanism that would make people stop abusing me once they start? You're talking absolute nonsense. People don't stop abusing until they are punished - and my abusers were never punished, establishing the precedent that everyone no lives by. It would never occur to anyone to punish my abusers now because they were never taught that abusing me was wrong. Everyone now thinks they're supposed to abuse me - abusing me has become popular, like a fad that won't go away.

The paranoid delusion is thinking that every person is a sadist who’s out to hurt you

That's your claim - your projection. You are the paranoiac with delusions. I'm accusing you all of being raging malignant narcissists, which every person is born as until it is traumatized out of them through upbringing. All children start out as narcissists; only being forced to face one's own mortality drives that out.

some stranger saying “sorry” on the internet is doing so with some undefined malicious intent.

You're not capable of being "sorry" - you have no concept of right or wrong; only what stimulates your pleasure centers. That's all anyone cares abut.

And the malicious intent is defined: You are all malignant narcissists who objectify everyone not in your social group, and abuse anyone who doesn't have a social group to protect them to obtain narcissistic supply. It's all in any abnormal psychology textbook.

I hope you get better.

No you don't, and there's no "better" to get. As long as human beings exist, my life will be a living hell, and things will get worse for me. You raging narcissists will see to that.