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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/keycoinandcandle on 2023-10-07 07:25:45.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/titanic_777 on 2023-10-06 17:14:46.

(not sure if my other post got removed due to no user flair so I'm posting again)

I'd had dysphoria since I was around 13. At 14 I found out what trans men where and immediately went "that's it!". I grew up in a very repressed conservative Christian home and I just counted down the date until I could start testosterone. Well, I finally did this past August.

Though, earlier on in the year I began to realize that the disgust I felt towards my body, towards being female, had somewhat went away? I had a brief period of time where I wanted to desist before starting testosterone, but I just chalked it up to me having less dysphoria bc I was already on the path of transition (if that makes sense?)

But now, I'm at risk of my family disowning me, and the more I think about it, the more I realize my own values and beliefs really conflict with all of this. On top of that, I still don't really LIKE being female, but I think a lot of that was me not wanting to conform into what people think a woman should be. It's been over a month on T and throughout the past week I've seen pretty girls and now I want to break down. Maybe I want to be pretty. Maybe I have BPD. My next shot is due today and I don't think I'm going to do it

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Lurkersquid on 2023-10-06 14:50:53.

I began socially transitioning around 14 or 15 years old and had never had sex or any real relationships before. My dysphoria stopped me from pursuing relationships and I had no interest in penetrative sex at the time. I had decided I wouldn't seek out a partner until I was fully transitioned. Luckily I ended up detransitioning before any surgeries but I do wonder how many other trans people have this mindset and/or got srs as virgins and destroyed their sex lives before they even began.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Shifty-Fang on 2023-10-06 08:24:05.

I was only on t for 1.5 ish years starting in 2018 but the fact that I was does add to my miscarriage risk according to my doctor. Apparently during double incision my nipples /nerves were not fully disconnected, they hurt alot right now and its really weird. I'm now even more pissed I can't breastfeed anymore tbh. But I can't change that now. I might just have to simulate that and get donor milk if I can.

I just took a test yesterday.. we both didnt think we were fertile. I'm just really hoping that this little lentil lives 🥺 I wasn't sure whether to post this as a vent or inspiring positivity but I think it counts as both 🤔😳 I don't know what else to say as I'm still processing this. Even though the signs and symptoms were obvious and I have had major baby fever I'm kinda freaking out.

Just thought I'd let yall know, because I know regardless of how long u r on t alot of us can get worries about fertility. Really surreal typing and saying this stuff five-ten years later but there that is...

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/ButchOphelia on 2023-10-05 21:32:44.

One of the most difficult aspects of transition for me has been the constant anxiety about whether or not I'm passing.

The constant fear of other people perceiving me as trans. Every day, checking my outfit to make sure none of my feminine qualities are too noticeable. Being so careful with clothing and the way it fit. I didn't want to stand out. Didn't want anyone to even think about me. I couldn't even wear graphic t-shirts because I was so paranoid about what other people might think about them, or that they would say something about it.

The dislike of my body wasn't made better by transitioning, it was intensified by trying to pass, because I kept finding new things that didn't "fit" with being a man. Men's clothes were not made for my body. Even many years into transition, I had to find clothes that created the right illusion of having been born male.

The other anxiety is about fitting into the illusion of a male identity. I was not born male. I've had many interests and qualities and relationships with people over the years that are typically "female". My experiences were "female" experiences. I've felt since transitioning that I wasn't able to be fully myself with most people, not able to fully express who I am, who I was, and have them see all of me.

I became slowly more and more uncomfortable with this fact. Feeling like I was living behind a mask, never really letting my full self out. Maybe it's not something people can understand until they go through it.

What I long for is the days when my body and my brain and my past matched. It feels like they no longer do, which is the opposite of what I expected. I never felt like my life was easy back then, but I realize now how easy and simple it truly was. I just didn't understand. I was young.

People talk as if transitioning is a process of making your "body match your brain", but in reality, it's the opposite. You become less and less connected to your past, less and less connected to your body itself, less connected to the things that make you you.

And the longer you spend doing it, the farther down the road you go, the more disconnected you feel from the person you used to be. And then what?

Now, I'm looking for a way to move on. In this body, in this identity, as it currently is. I know it will be possible somehow. Life is still a great gift, and there's so much beauty in it and in the world.

For anyone going through similar things, don't give up on yourself. Don't give up on life. Don't give up on finding a way forward. It will be there if you just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Sissyfromhell on 2023-10-05 17:42:25.

I’ve made a post or two there and it seems most of the replies I got were from people who are still actively transitioning… I’m seeking out stories and advice from all sides, trying to hear both biased and unbiased experiences, but it seems they’re almost as bent on “trans is right unless it makes you feel wrong” as r/mtf ?

Maybe I’m overstating and just haven’t seen the underbelly yet. I get plenty of great answers here but I’m insatiable and always looking for more. Have you had good or bad experiences w r/actual_detrans ?

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/drink-fast on 2023-10-04 09:33:31.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/daftmunk on 2023-10-05 02:26:44.

Growing up, the older I got, the more I felt I was different from other young women and more similar to men. I felt like I had a masculine brain, but I knew it would sound sexist and someone would challenge me if I said it. I felt distress from believing I didn't fit in.

But the older I've got and better I've gotten at critical thinking, the less different I've felt from other women. Online, I can't tell the gender of someone who's posted something. From my experiences on testosterone, I do believe some psychological differences between the sexes are biological. But overall, men and women are more similar than different, and there are a lot of androgynous people. I actually do fit in.

I attended a women's Bible study today. I was nervous they'd think I looked like a man. It went okay. At first, I felt like I was more masculine than everyone else in the Zoom call, but I challenged that thought. I had no rational reason to believe it. I don't know any of those people. Somehow, I learned to assume that I'm more masculine than other women. I don't know where it came from. But when I think about it, the only thing about me that's more masculine than them is how I dress.

I transitioned because I felt like I didn't fit in, but I do fit in.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/treadingthebl on 2023-10-05 01:48:37.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/ChildofObama on 2023-10-05 01:41:58.

It’s been three years since I realized I wasn’t trans, but now, I look back on that ‘journey’ and I realize the only reason it happened in the first place was me being exposed to porn.

I first discovered porn halfway through high school. I was already terminally online, and I got hooked. Both gay male porn, and MTF gender bender porn. That, combined with insecurity about my body (i.e I’m overweight, have scoliosis, chronic acne, and a hydrocele), and identity politics exploding in popularity, got me thinking I might be trans.

My porn addiction continued into college and got worse, to the point where I blurted out something I saw in porn during one of my classes (that was the worst day ever).

Also, at the time, I started attending LGBTQ support groups/events on campus. Since the reasons I was questioning was the ones I listed above, and I had other bad habits that were putting a damper on my health at the time too (i.e bad sleep schedule, procrastination), I felt disconnected from the other people there and wasn’t making any friends within the community. I think they all saw me for what I really was and got the ick, while I thought by surrounding myself with other queer people, I’d have similar experiences to what I saw online.

The one person in that circle I eventually did become friends with was cuz we bonded over a tv show we both watched, not over LGBTQ related stuff.

Then in 2020, when things shut down during my last semester due to Covid, and I was pulled out of that environment abruptly, I realized what I was previously doing was all BS:

I was never trans.

I became an active part of the community for the wrong reasons, and I was being a generally toxic person during those years in general.

I also realized I only attended support groups cuz sitting around and complaining was easy, focusing on schoolwork or being an after school activity where I’d actually learn something requires effort.

I used those support groups as a venting board where I could say whatever I wanted, and that’s likely why I gave the other members the ick.

Porn is the worst thing you could possibly look at.

I have had many days over the past several years where I told myself I’d never look at porn again, but I always go back. I don’t use it to guide my life choices anymore, I at least learned a lesson in that, but I still look at it a lot. I know I need to stop, I just don’t know how.

Thoughts? Any advice would be appreciated.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/orbmad1 on 2023-10-04 22:05:51.

So to clarify, I am a FTM a decade on testosterone. I hang around this sub because I have negative feelings re my transition and the community and end up questioning it, but Im not actively detransistioning right now - I haven't decided.

Anyhow, I experience really bad cramps in my abdominal area. I read that transgender men experience this because the uterus is because atrophied, there's some peer reviewed articles. Its one of the reasons I wanted to get hysto.

Last week, I had a phone call with my gender clinics doctor and he said that he has 'never heard' of any transmen, out of his 500 patients, who feel this way. He said my pain sounded like endometriosis and it was a GP issue. He then wrote to my GP and said, and I quote,

"he was considering stopping his testosterone therapy because of his lower abdominal pain. I have explained to him that while the testosterone can cause endometrial thinning I can see no obvious reason this would cause pain and hence I think that it is more likely that his pain is co-incidentally rather than causally related to his testosterone. His pain is lower abdominal, central, and exacerbated by orgasm although present at other times. He has no bowel or bladder symptoms or dyspareunia. I would suggest that he be investigated in the manner a cis female of his age would be"

This is ridiculous. I am a female, who takes testosterone injections, so to say that I should be treated like the average female of my age is ignoring a very important factor, namely that I have been taking testosterone since I was age fourteen, and I am now 23 years of age. Can we believe my uterus is in the same state as a 23-year-old woman?

I wrote a pretty angry email, and he's going to call me Tuesday. Does anybody have any advice? This has to be wrong, right? This cannot be medically sound research

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Bicycle6844 on 2023-10-04 21:39:10.

So I used to live in a small, affluent ski town in Colorado. This was back before I was trans, but I was questioning, I was I a support group with kids from various neighboring towns. In the next town over, a situation happened at the local high school with one of the kids who moved there a year earlier from a large southern city. This kid presented as male, male name, seemingly was a bio male. The kid was trans and the school knew and kept it a secret. This person starting dating a straight female student. A year later, after various low level intimate interactions, they boy was outed as being trans. They straight girlfriend was horrified and the parents got into an uproar.

The trans kid’s position was that they were just doing what was best for them and didn’t need to tell the girlfriend anything about their past.

The girlfriend and her parents sort of went crazy and accused the school, etc of helping cover up a scheme to get their daughter in a “gay” relationship. Clearly they were conservative straight people, not really the norm in that community.

Who do you think is at fault here? It ended up being a bad situation all around.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/New_Falcon_3392 on 2023-10-04 06:44:47.

I have never been in a relationship because I don’t want to be a woman. I am a female attracted to females but I don’t feel like a lesbian. I can’t see myself in a lesbian relationship, I can only see myself as a male in the equation, sexually and socially. I am also more attracted to straight girls. This is massively depressing for me because obviously what straight girl would want me. I don’t want to be trans but I also don’t want to be alone forever. But idk if anyone would want me as a trans man anyway. I am seriously losing all hope for life. How do I fix this

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/ok5300 on 2023-10-03 09:00:12.

I’ve stared sharing my detransition on tiktok recently. It feels good to vent my thoughts. It gets lonely tho sometimes. Had one comment say that it was my fault bc I lied to my doctors, and a lot of people agreed. Doesn’t affect me much but it was definitely a bizarre feeling. Trying to find the detrans supportive community on there

Is there any people here who also shares their process on TikTok and wants to connect there add @nikki_puma <3

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/drink-fast on 2023-10-04 04:45:04.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Kaldaus on 2023-10-03 22:45:11.

So just a little bit about it in case you have not heard about it before, I am building a center that will be to primarily help detransitioners but will also be able to help people that are transitioning as well! I am currently working with a therapist who is going to be working closely with everyone who wants to, as well as being involved in developing some of the activities that we do. I want to offer help with every aspect of things, from helping to fix side effects from hormones, having a better outlook on ones self and being more comfortable in your gender. I hope to have group activities where the people in the group are able to share there own struggles and what eventually they found worked the best. I have things set up for anyone that wants to move, they would be able to get started with a job at around $12-14 an hour with a $500-1000 signing bonus! Also housing is plentiful and very inexpensive, a one bedroom apartment is around $550 a month. I also have connections to help if people are trying to get on disability or something similar, I have connections to help with finding doctors and medical care, and I am very familiar with the benefits situation here, its possible to get food stamps and assistance if you would like it. I am also in the process of getting online stuff available to as I know that moving or relocating is not a feasible thing for a lot of people! I would love to hear feedback from people on what you think, feel free to ask any questions and I will do my best to answer them! If you would be interested in possibly helping out or being involved just let me know! Hope everyone is well and are having a good day!!

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/beautifulagain on 2023-10-03 20:07:27.

Today would be my 655th day of taking testosterone. In all that time, regardless of method, I never missed a dose. I diligently waited for this to fix everything for me. It didn’t.

Today, I’m due for my shot, and I won’t be taking it. For the first time in 655 days, I'm making the choice to go off T.

I feel immense relief and immense anxiety.

Will I be able to look female again? Will I look how I used to look? Will I ever be okay again?

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/ButchOphelia on 2023-10-03 16:32:11.

Hello,

I wanted to share my story in case it helps anyone in any way. Not looking to complain, just to share what I've been through (so far) for anyone considering detransition or any professionals who want to understand the medical situation that some of us go through.

I was on T for 3 years and had top surgery before deciding to get a full hysterectomy. At 3 years on T, I had persistent cramping pain from my uterus – This, and the idea that I wanted to have phalloplasty someday, was what pushed me to getting a hysto.

I was unsure about leaving the ovaries in or taking them out, and to be perfectly honest, I was not in a position where I was well-informed enough or emotionally ready to make the decision that I did. I had them removed as well. I was 25 at this point.

After surgery, I woke up not being able to use the bathroom. It was like my bladder muscles had completely seized up. This continued on for the next couple of months, while the surgeon put me on multiple rounds of antibiotics, assuming that I had a UTI. I didn't. Eventually I stopped taking them, and just hoped it would get better on its own. About a year later, when it had improved some but not a lot, I got put on Vagifem. This seemed to help some. Eventually I decided to lower my testosterone dosage to see if that helped, and it seemed to be good for relaxing those muscles a bit.

At the same time, something went weird with my eyesight. I don't know if this was due to antibiotics or hormone changes. I developed trouble with focusing my eyes properly, dry eye, and inflammation in my eyes. 6 years later now, I have glasses that help some with the focusing, but I imagine my eyes will never be the same again. I just don't see how I used to, is the only way I can explain it.

6 months after surgery, I had a flare-up of Crohn's Disease. I had been diagnosed with a lesser form of it before starting transition, but it had never been as bad as it got after surgery. Thankfully, with diet and lifestyle changes I was able to get better over the course of a couple years.

Shortly after that flared up, I started having chest pains, which I went to multiple hospitals and cardiologists for, and which they couldn't help me with. Everyone chalked it up to anxiety, didn't see anything wrong with my heart. I do have anxiety, but only since all this started happening.

Along with the chest pains, I also started to develop over time a consistently fast heart rate, on and off high blood pressure, and shortness of breath. All attributed to anxiety. I still don't know if this is true or not, or if it's actually just the testosterone.

At this point, I fully believe that transition was a mistake. I was too young and uninformed to be able to make the decisions I made in my early 20s. I realized pretty quickly after surgery that I would rather be a healthy woman than an unhealthy man.

I don't know if it's even possible for me to get on estrogen at this point, or if I should just continue on as I am. I don't know how to find a doctor that can help me. And I worry that I'll die young from cardiac problems.

I have insomnia and wake up with my heart racing from the anxiety after only a few hours. I get depression, lose my appetite, and have lost a ton of weight. Panic attacks galore.

Despite all this, I'm still alive, and I'm working on having compassion for myself. The decisions I made were what I believed to be the right ones at the time, given my mental state and the information that I had available. I shouldn't have been able to make those decisions, but I was, and so it's not entirely my fault. Regardless of my medical future and what gender people perceive me as, I'm hoping I can someday find a new normal, where I feel more stable and can get some semblance of my old life back.

To anyone considering suicide, as I have been, please just give yourself more time. The world is bigger than the problems you're dealing with right now. The world is still beautiful. It's full of music, and art, and people, and animals, and nature, that can help you heal. The problems with your body may never be able to be reversed, and I deeply understand the pain of that. But keep going. Make your own path. Find joy in the simple things. Live however you need to live right now, and later on down the line I believe new opportunities will become available for you to get back to who you want to be in the world.

My mantra now is to do no more harm. Which includes psychological harm. I no longer want to beat myself up for things that I can't go back and change. I want to fully accept myself as I am, imperfect as I am, and become whoever I'm still meant to be in the future. I believe there's still a purpose for being here, if only to share my story, to bring happiness to the people in my life, and to see as much of the world as I can.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Dirtydog91 on 2023-10-03 15:19:16.

A little backstory here is that when I was young boy I loved doing girl things and always thought the ‘girls had more fun’.

I still did boy things mainly and enjoyed it but there was this part of me that thought it would be awesome to be a girl and be able to dress up, play with dolls and listen to girls music.

After about 12 I realised I was gay and thought again that it would be so much better and easier to be a girl as I wouldn’t have to pretend to be straight as a man or come out as gay. I struggled with this for some time until I was about 16 and came out as gay.

I’m 32 years old now and I’m very happy to be a man. I’m really glad that adults never questioned my gender identity (partly because I never said anything and partly because this was the late 90s/early 00’s and transitioning wasn’t such a big thing and pretty much unheard of in children/adolescents).

Listening to people that have got caught up in medical transition, it kinda gives me shivers to think what could have happened if I was born just 10 years or so later. I’m pretty certain that if it was suggested to me that I could be a female born in a male body I would have really believed that.

Like I said I’m a fully grown man now and very much happy to be. I didn’t have gender dysphoria but I was definitely not happy being a boy for a few years of my puberty years.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/cinder_garden on 2023-10-03 07:01:32.

I recently confided in my close friend (who I also live with) about how horrible I was feeling about feeling like ill never been able to look like a woman again. This feeling came from an old friend of mine who I decided to catch up with, telling me verbatim, "you will be misgendered for the rest of your life" and then laughing. Yeah, I know I need new friends lol. I don't think I'll hang with that person again.

But..

After I told my close friend this, he immediately started to say how he can relate so much. That he's finally decided to transition to a woman because... he saw a YouTube video that he could relate to, which "confirmed" all his feelings about being in the wrong body. That he used to be an incel and now he wants to be a woman. Wtf

In my head I was just like ughhhh, here we go. Thanks for making everything about you, especially when it's a completely different situation and I know for a fact he's not trans. He has autism, ADHD, depression, anxiety, is a CSA victim, and potential schizophrenia/bipolar. Basically every comorbidity and trauma. (In my opinion, I feel that a lot of people think they're trans because of past trauma and mental illness that hasn't been properly explored with therapy. I believe we should work on the inside first to get to the root of the problem before changing the outside)

I asked him heaps of question about why he wants to transition and all he basically said was "this is just who I am, I will finally be free. I can escape". And that he can "relate to women" more. This friend of mine has a fetish for lesbians and I honestly think it's autogynephilia. He also has said to me in the past that he wants to be a woman and have a six pack and breasts because he likes the "aesthetic". What the fuck.

I have so so so much trauma I'm working on at the moment about my past as a trans person, how the medical industry failed me, how my own community failed me. And now I feel like I have to watch it happen all again to my friend.

Even if he successfully transitions, which I doubt, because he can be aggressive, with not a drop of femininity or any slight "female" behaviours. He has a beard as well, etc. I just don't think I can manage being around this stuff anymore. He said he wants to go to the doctor and get on estrogen straight away. I asked him if he knows the risks and he's just like "yes I know". It was just insane to me because a lot of the stuff I asked, his reply was just "this is just who I am and I can finally be myself." To which I would reply, how is altering your body going to make you more like yourself? "Oh it's who I am inside finally being seen on the outside" Etc etc. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN THOUGH? How can you possibly know what a woman feels like? A woman isn't a feeling, it's a biological reality.

How can I tell him that I just don't want to hear about this stuff, but in a nice way? I can't deal with it mentally. I need to heal from all this trans shit first.

If I didn't currently live with him, I would distance myself for my own sanity, but I can't do that. And I really don't want to move because I love my house.

Don't get me wrong, I care about this friend a lot and he's been a good support in my life. We have great times together but I just feel stuck. Like this is a disease that keeps spreading to people I know.

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/Barzona on 2023-10-02 16:02:15.

I think I have finally figured everything out: I do not have a gender identity, I just have a gender expression that used to be compromised by my conservative family and it led me to have gender dysphoria for almost 10 years. It still affects me to this day, but I eventually overcame most of it with time and finally became comfortable with my natural masculinity.

I was running from my masculinity because I felt like being too masculine was going to force me to express myself a certain way and live a life I couldn't live. I'd shave off all my body and facial hair, I grew my hair out, and dressed very androgynously. It was rough. It got in the way of a ton of growth that I'm only getting to enjoy now.

I know that people, myself included, give the trans community a lot of shit for obsessing over gender identity, but if you really think about it, the conservative right is just as obsessed with gender identity. If you've ever met a guy who says things like "I don't do this or that because I'm a MAN," you've just met someone with a gender-based identity, and a fragile one at that. It's the obsession with gender identity that causes damage to everyone. That's the root of it all.

If my "queer" gender expression isn't being compromised or stifled, then anyone's perception of how I carry myself can neither validate OR invalidate me. I validate myself by accepting who and what I am.

Pronouns? If someone calls me "he" because they see me as male, that's fine, I have no problem being male. If someone calls me "she" because they are tuned into my feminine energy, that's also fine. If someone calls me "they" because they want to be considerate of someone who might be having a gender identity crisis, that's also fine. Considerate people are kind.

Conversely, if someone calls me "she" because they can tell that I'm gay and they are taking a dig at me, that's mean, but it doesn't make me feel insecure. That's their failing. If someone projects some hardcore male expectation on me, that's misguided of them and that was the source of my dysphoria in the first place, but that can also no longer hurt me. I'm no longer trapped in that conservative cage. If someone is referring to me as "they" because they want to claim me as nonbinary, that would annoy me in a whole other way since it's yet another person in my life projecting a gender identity onto me just like my family projected "man" onto me, but I still don't have to go in for it. Just because my expression isn't "binary," it doesn't mean that I have to identify as "nonbinary." That, too, comes with fragility and I'm not fragile about it, so there's no point.

If my sense of self is based on knowing and accepting myself, and if I am free to be the kind of human that I naturally am, then my identity is not gendered and cannot be threatened by anyone "not getting it." I do not have a gender identity, I have an identity. I do not label myself, I call myself Joseph.

This all being said, while I reject the whole concept of gender identity at this point, I will still respect that, for whatever reason, gender identity might still be affecting someone. The guy I gave an example of up above might have been conditioned to be insecure about not being masculine enough. He might live his life in fear that if anyone around him doesn't perceive him as a man, he might no longer exist. I don't have to antagonize anyone like that if he's not trying to harm me, I'll just be cool and respect how he feels, but if a person is an insecure pain to be around because of this, I might not want to spend time around them.

This is the attitude I'm leading with from now on. It's perfect and I can navigate any space with it. I no longer feel compromised at all. Hallelujah lol

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/aiuthrowaway4safety on 2023-10-03 02:23:15.

I do want to preface this by saying I still fully respect trans people and don’t exactly identify as female either, just very much not male. I don’t really identify as anything/no label and I ask that that’s respected please because I’m really scared to post here <3

I think a lot of people assume I’m mtf now because I had top surgery and my face is still sort of weird from T. But even growing up I had kids make fun of me for my face. I also wear a lot of loose and long skirts and dresses which I think makes people think I’m hiding something. I’d sort of like to start wearing breast prosthetics occasionally to replace top surgery (I like that I had it, but sometimes I want that shape) but I really don’t know how to explain that to my friends especially since I do still prefer they refer to me with they/them.

I never really grew up in an environment with a ton of misogyny (I guess my dad, a bit) and I sort of see my former tryst in trying to be male as just a part of my life that happened when I was a different person, but I was also diagnosed with fairly notable autism at 14 which I’m sure affects my social feelings and such

On a spiritual aspect, I’m an aspiring follower of Artemis and sometimes I fear that she may reject me.

This is my voice and here are some pictures of what I look like now

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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/notaplant999 on 2023-10-03 00:30:37.