Well I could relax, yet still have the always uneasy feelings. I seems to be unable to do the doings of things important to me.
Not always do things need to be based on trauma or bad experiences (not that you said that), but bad expieriences often do lead to bad patterns.
I was reading this for like the third thyme now, I got what it meant to say, but got confused as I read it as the guy saying: You be bad cop, I'll be good cop, which then doesnt make sense, when the bad cop disapears.
This reminds me of the Tomska-Skit about bad cops, where he proves that the government is bees.