Transtronaut

Update: I was right, it's cozy as fuck.

Also, most of the game is just clicking through dialogue while enjoying synthwave music, which is great for letting your mind escape, but is not for everyone. I'm definitely enjoying it.

I haven't played it in years, but I remember getting really cozy vibes from "VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action". You basically just talk to customers and hear their stories while serving drinks. I didn't end up playing all the way to the end, but I remember it being really chill and laid back.

Come to think of it, since I didn't know I was trans back when I played it, I'm now wondering if some of the cozy vibes came from diffuse, unrecognized gender euphoria via the female protagonist. Been meaning to play it again to see how it strikes me now.

Actually, this is getting me kind of hype to play it; I think I'll fire it up.

Ah, yeah - I failed to provide some missing context: having read that early on is what led me to wonder. I think it also said something about ADHD symptoms potentially decreasing as well if you're lucky, so I've been hoping for that outcome. 😅

Thanks, that helps. ❤️

I've actually been wondering about that ADHD angle, but I really didn't want it to be the case. 😬 It would make sense, though.

I guess there's not much to do but, as you say, take it a day at a time and try not to beat myself up any more than the dysphoria already is. I'm not too concerned about maintaining any particular pace or "deadline" for transitioning, it's just frustrating to not be able to chip away at my sources of dysphoria.

I guess what's got me most down lately isn't the dysphoria per se (although there's plenty of that), but more the fact that between fatigue and executive dysfunction, I can't seem to keep up with any aspect of transitioning that takes effort, which is most of them. Lately I've pretty much just been taking my HRT pills and shaving my face every 3-4 days. It's something, but at this rate it'll be a long time before I can actually make significant progress.

I'll second this. Finding it in the sidebar was a great help when my egg finally shattered around six months ago.

It's like poetry; it rhymes.

Agreed, it was pretty good until then. But the last paragraph is what made it a great take.

Neon Genesis Evangelion came out in 1995.

❤️

After my egg cracked almost 6 months ago now, I went through a lengthy phase where a lot of music would make me burst into tears from sheer relatability. I thought I'd stabilized enough to be over that by now, but just the other day, Peter Gabriel's "Solsbury Hill" got me good. Those themes of stepping out of the hazy drudgery of your comfort zone to embrace a new reality in the face of general confusion and/or disbelief, and having it feel so very right, are absolutely on point for the trans experience.

The track I stumbled upon early on and keep coming back to is Röyksopp & Robyn's "Every Little Thing". It really felt/feels like a call from my inner woman to my repressed AMAB shell, and has become the motivational anthem for my transition.

I got that too (I'm on Android/Firefox). I haven't found a way to remove it, but you can press and drag to move it around, so that it's at least out of the way.