I caught the first episode of Table Top when it launched. It was so amazing that I went out and bought my first board game. And started a weekly game night that I've kept going ever since. I now have somewhere around 200 board games.
I used that game night to work on cooking challenges. Feed the people and they show.
Because of that show and it's impact on my life I am now the Executive Chef at my hospital. I still run games every weekend. There was a butterfly effect started by that show that impacted my life and now the lives of everyone I feed. And everyone I introduce to board games.
You might struggle with self worth. But to me, a guy in Montana that you've never met, you're the most influential and inspiring person I know of. Fyi.
I really enjoyed Red Rising by Pierce Brown. I recommend it.