New here, and im new again if you know what i mean, had 4 years then bam.
I had 2 beers today. I'm trying to taper so my withdrawal isn't so bad cause i cant get the correct detox meds and inpatient isnt an option. Id go cold turkey but the panic attacks are horrendous, like puking cause they get so awful. Tomorrow I plan on having only one beer.
I want to be the old healthy version of myself I once was. I miss him. I miss waking up ready for the day and not wondering if I embarrassed myself the night before. I'm ready to love myself again but am not sure if I do now.
I'm hoping by Wednesday I can join you all in saying I'm not driking today! Sorry if this isn't the right spot as I'm only now finding the community.