The lighter side of ADHD
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But yeah this is me but replace it with general productivity, insightful ideas, and a general will to get my life in order. By 8am time to wake up and get back to spiraling.
Or with creative things, constantly re-read what I write, constantly analyze and revise u til it no longer resembles what I wanted and abandon the idea to move onto the next thing.
No? Just me? 🥺
I get a little spike in the morning but it's usually over in less than an hour. Then I get hit with task paralysis for the rest of the day, spiral when I go to bed, and if I'm lucky I'll get tired enough to slip into a mildly dissociative hyperfocused state.
I also can't do creative things. I have too many ideas, they don't mesh, I get frustrated and give up. And nothing is ever just right. There's always something to nitpick, something that needs to be changed. Writing is so hard. I have the thoughts, but I struggle to put them into words. When I do find the words, they never feel right. Sometimes it takes me an hour to write an email. It all just gets really frustrating sometimes.
Why is night crack so amazing?
If I could use it any other time of day my life would be so much better.
Instead I hark along the day being mediocre hoping to find a time when I don’t need to sleep.
I just got done creating my own alphabet. Took me a couple hours to get all the nuance and flow of the letters and I still need to go through all the numbers and punctuation. Why am I doing this when I should have been asleep an hour ago? I have no idea. Why did I need a custom alphabet? No Clue...I just randomly remembered about Tolkien creating his own language and decided I could do that. I don't even have any literary or language experience. Brain just said make a language and now here I am...
Literally me everyday. As a graphic designer, I get the majority of my work done after 11. And with a 1yo, that has become a lot more difficult