For context, I (14 soon 15 female) have just started high school this year, and it has been very stressful. I've been having trouble with studying ever since 5th grade, I struggled with pretty much all subjects except English and my grades have significantly dropped. I have told my parents but they said that I'm just not trying hard enough. I have thought of dropping out since the end of 8th grade and all of 9th grade, but sucked it up and kept quiet because i was afraid my father would get mad and make a fuss about it.
But a while ago, when bringing me back from high school, I was complaining that the school was too far, i didn't like the students and teachers, and still had trouble with school. He suggested i drop out, which i didn't expect. At first i pretended like i didn't want to because then i'd have nothing to do, but he said that building a career doesn't necessarily rely on getting a degree, so, when i was sure he wasn't joking, i agreed. Another reason i want to drop out is because I'm under too much stress, from school and my parents that want me to be "perfect".
Though not long ago, he changed my school and put me in one near his father's home where i'd go with my cousin (15 female) temporarily, and if i didn't like it, i'd drop out. But recently, it seems that he might not let me drop out, and he's been getting upset at me whenever i'm not studying.
Today, a weekend, he told me to go study because i'm "always playing", and i got upset because i've been doing my best the entire week and it was still not enough for him. Now I"m distancing myself and won't speak to him or my mother because i'm afraid i'd say something i'm not supposed to from anger, and he's saying i'm doing it because i'm "lazy" and don't want to study.
So, AITA?