This phenomenon, evoked by Too Much Shit Going On Around Me, is in some sense destroying my life.
I mean, the alternate path I've been on because of sensory sensitivity + autistic inertia has taught me a ton of valuable shit over the past half decade, so if I ever manage to get into a better situation I'll be so much better prepared than I ever was before, now that I understand this stuff... but I'm trading years of my life for the insight, years spent locked in by inertia for a great portion of almost every single day... plus a not-small measure of damage to my health from all the fucking drugs I have to take in order to not go absolutely insane, become completely dysregulated, be constantly highkey suicidal etc in such a scenario.
Also, a tangent, but I really wish there were fewer typos in this paper, this kind of research is utterly critical to getting a better living situation for millions of people on the spectrum, and the typos don't help that. K, done complaining about my pet peeve.