Week 1/Background -> lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/8767449
Dosage:
4mg Estradiol
100mg Spironolactone
Physical effects:
After two weeks, physical changes are still minimal. My body still feels more relaxed overall, with less tension and back pain. I have been dealing with Covid for the last week, which has run me down and held me back from acomplishing some of the things I wanted to. I am finally getting past it though, and hope for a better week next week.
Mental effects:
Mentally I continue to quickly improve. I feel more aligned both internally and with the world around me. I am sleeping much better, and still having an easier time both falling asleep and getting up. It feel like the world around me is changing, even though I know it's me that is. I feel like I'm the same person in a world that fits me better. Interactions with others feel more genuine, and I'm finding it way easier to reach out and connect with others. I'm finding myself challenging some of my long held beliefs about what my weaknesses are and what I need to feel "ok" in life. I'm finding I'm almost feeling bored with some of my problems, like I've let them hold me back for too long for no real good reason, and it's time for that to change. Being slowed down by Covid has frustrated me quite a bit, I finally want to get more done in life, but physically haven't been able too. I'm looking forward to that changing and focusing on how good it is that I'm feeling motivated enough to be frustrated.
I never believed any of this was possible, yet here I am doing it. Find support, reach out, you are less alone than you think.
Melissa
I'm coming up on one year. Being so far out from where I started, I almost forgot what life used to be like, and how much better it is now. I've recently been in a bad headspace, but this helped remind me of some of the good things I have going right now, and why I'm transitioning. Thank you, and congratulations :)
What has surprised you the most over that year?
Probably my mental state. My first week on HRT was miserable because I was already super depressed, but I also had TONS of uncertainty about my identity and anxiety about the future for trans people in my country. All the HRT did at first was make me feel more numb and give me a lot of sexual complications, so it felt like my body wasn't working and it was maybe the most dysphoric I'd ever been.
But then, on week 2 I suddenly wanted to get out of bed? And I could feel emotions again? Food tasted better!? Idk what it was that first week but I'm glad I struggled through it, because now it feels like I'm actually LIVING for the first time in my life. I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say that every aspect of my life changed for the better. I can enjoy even the mundane, I suddenly have goals I could achieve, I feel closer to all of my loved ones, I can laugh, I CAN EVEN CRY NOW!
Other than that, the sexual changes were very unexpectedly intense, and I mean that in the best way possible haha.
That's great to hear! I've been quite surprised how motivating its felt overall, like sitting around doing nothing doesn't sound nearly as enjoyable as it used to.