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The Gender Dysphoria Bible // In depth explanation of the different types of gender dysphoria.
Trans Voice Help // A community here on blahaj.zone for voice training.
LGBTQ+ Healthcare Directory // A directory of LGBTQ+ accepting Healthcare providers.
Trans Resistance Network // A US-based mutual aid organization to help trans people facing state violence and legal discrimination.
TLDEF's Trans Health Project // Advice about insurance claims for gender affirming healthcare and procedures.
TransLifeLine's ID change Library // A comprehensive guide to changing your name on any US legal document.
Gender Spectrum // Resources for youth, parents and family, educators, mental health professionals and faith leaders.

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The Trevor Project // Web chat, phone call, and text message LGBTQ+ support hotline.
TransLifeLine // A US/Canada LGBTQ+ phone support hotline service. The US line has Spanish support.
LGBT Youthline.ca // A Canadian LGBT hotline support service with phone call and web chat support. (4pm - 9:30pm EST)
988lifeline // A US only Crisis hotline with phone call, text and web chat support. Dedicated staff for LGBTQIA+ youth 24/7 on phone service, 3pm to 2am EST for text and web chat.

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What i am? I'm so confused and i need opinions... (lemmy.blahaj.zone)

submitted 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]

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Hello! I'm here 'cause i'm very, VERY confused about what i am. I'm 26, virgin, never even kissed. I have always thought i was (and maybe, deep down, still think) a straight guy, but now i don't know anymore. Now i'm very very confused about my sexuality and masculinity.

I wanna say that i watch sissy hypno (porn videos that should brainwash you to become and think like a girl) since i was 16 years old. Now when i watch porn i always imagine to be the girl. I have used my mom's clothes in the past (i don't remember if i already started watching sissy hypno). I'm also in a particular situation down there: I think I'm so conditioned by sissy hypno, bbc, big cocks, porn etc that now i don't properly "jerk off" anymore, 'cause now i always cum HANDSFREE (without touching myself), in my underwear and in my pants, just watching porn and imagining to be the girl... i literally wet myself. As i said before, i have always thought i was a straight guy, although i have become kind of "obsessed" with a particular porn actor (a male one), and he REALLY makes me doubt my sexuality a lot... I have also favourite female pornostars, but with them i'm never 100% sure WHY i like them so much... If it's because i simply wanna have sex with them or 'cause i wanna be LIKE them.

I have tried to stop watching porn (my record is a month) but nothing changes. I always come back and i have always urges to be a girl. If i stop and i try to masturbate with pics of solo girls it's "difficult" for me, 'cause it's difficult to think about having sex with them, but i think things like "i wanna be her friend"/"I wanna dress up with/like her"/"I wanna take pics in front of the mirror with her"/"I wanna be like her" etc...

The problem is that i think i'm not a girl and that i'm not gay 'cause i think it's just a fetish. If when i'm horny i imagine to be a girl, when i cum PNC (Post Nut Clarity) hits and i wanna be a guy again. It's like having 2 different personalities. Also, i don't think i'm gay 'cause okay, maybe i like cock, but JUST if it's big and thick, otherwise no... It could exist the most beautiful man in the world, but if he does not have a big thick cock i won't like him.

So yeah, that's me... sorry if it's too long and sorry for bad english but i'm not a native speaker.

What do you think i am? I need opinions and suggestions...

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[–] [email protected] 4 points 9 months ago

Hey I'm a trans female and find this exact experience with porn very relatable. Always imagined myself as the female, really got used to a few make porn stars for being in the scenes I like.

I personally an averse to hypno but I was also interested in "sissy" content at some point.

Have you tried looking at fashion? Fashion, or even cosplay content can bring me a similar "I wanna be her" type of urge that I get when watching porn.