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don't leave my house a ton anyway but depression got really bad like late summer of last year and I haven't left my house since then. I barely leave my room. Sort of recovering at this point, but still not at the point where I can leave yet.

With covid "leaving the house" pretty much means going to the store though so I'm not missing much. I used to take walks around my neighborhood but I live in the suburbs and I sort of hate being the older single male walking around the neighborhood with with all these little kids around and shit. Feels weird. Not to mention there are still people who live here from when I was a kid, like parents of peers my age. I see them looking at me and can just feel their disappointment in me, which of course also might be me projecting. Plus I also wear a mask when near other people and I increasingly get those angry suburban looks about it. I miss the days when I could just walk around the neighborhood in a mask and no one would give me a thought. I really need to move.