askchapo

I've struggled with serious clinical depression and I honestly feel like if I wasn't "attractive" I might not be here today (after being at my lowest a couple years ago). It feels like being perceived as attractive is the only reason I have friends, or have dated. I'm very introverted and have a lot of social anxiety, but random girls have come up to me at school or work to flirt and ask for my number/insta.

I feel like when you're perceived as attractive and have decent style, people think quietness is stoic or mysterious or cute or whatever. When I was in middle school and had ugly glasses/bad hair/late puberty, being quiet just made me the weird kid outcast

I pretty much never start a conversation with anyone new and I'm pretty awkward or dry until I get to know a person, but people will still put effort in getting to know me; asking for social media, inviting me places, stuff like that. Tho sometimes I feel like my lack of energy intimidates people, especially less "attractive" people, into thinking I don't like them, which I have been working on. Conventionally attractive guys try harder to befriend me, which kinda sucks because I don't wanna be friends with a bunch of shallow people like the local himbo who wants me in his frat

Still looking for a group I really fit in with at college. Last year starting out as a freshman, I got drunk and hung out with a few straight dudes (and one bi guy who talked about getting with "f-slurs") that started talking about women like toys and the people they've had sex with. They asked me if I'd gotten with anyone and I said I plead the fifth, they started laughing and saying "that means yes". It was one of the cringiest experiences and I accepted a lot less invitations after that, but I guess I've been making friends with a couple guys who seem cool lately