Transfem

I picked a new full name, meaning that, in addition to me changing the given portion (first and middle), I changed my last name as well.

As the screen name shows, my first name is Angel, and my middle name is Jamie.

I picked Angel not out of any particular funny story. Even before I realized I was trans, I had resentment to the name I was given at birth, and I wanted to pick one I'd rather be called in more casual instances. Just out of nowhere, on a whim, my mind comes up with "Angel", admiring it in how it sounds, looks, and what it feels like when it is applied to me as a name. I requested my friends to start calling me that in school, and I introduced myself as such wherever applicable. When teachers called my legal name in attendance, I'd just kindly let them know "I go by Angel as a nickname. Thanks.", and people got pretty damn used to it. The only real goofy thing about the name for me is that I've always been very uncomfortable with religion due to being raised in a really strict Catholic household, but that wasn't really some kind of intentional irony for the lulz. I just love the way the name sounds.

When I was around 17, I accepted myself as trans, but I was under the impression that I was a binary trans woman initially, so I set on changing my name to "Angela". This was, however, because I knew very little about non-binary people and didn't think the term could be applicable to me. Once I got to a point of being further educated on enbies, I started identifying as non-binary around the age of 20 and subsequently went back to Angel to have a name that came off as more neutral.

I ended up picking my middle name a bit afterwards though. When I thought I was a binary trans woman, the plan was to name myself "Angela Jacqueline" as my first and middle, and I was going to keep my birth surname as well. I decided that Jacqueline was too feminine for it to be suitable as a middle name when it came to the kind of gendering I desired, but I wanted to keep the initials of "A. J." because, at that point, people in my friend circles usually either called me "Angel" or simply "A. J.", as I wasn't fond of going by Angela because I didn't have a feminine presentation at the time.

I thought of merely condensing it down to Jackie to make it more neutral, but it didn't stick too well for me, so I went with Jamie instead which made etymological sense because Jacqueline technically, by origin of the name in meaning, serves as a feminine version of James whereas I saw Jamie as the neutral counterpart of those two.

As far as the surname goes, I decided to change that once I got a clear idea that I had to distance myself from my blood relatives who effectively disowned me. Not only that, but the surname I was born with is really foreign and hard to pronounce for a lot of legal and professional administrations, and I also wanted to give a sense of spicy individuality to my whole name, having all three pieces of it represent me and no one else I'm tied to in particular.

After thinking everything through, I picked a new surname that starts with a J, which I found fitting because of how used I got to being called "A. J." at times. In order to still keep somewhat of a cultural connection, I picked a surname that is still very common in the native country of my folks. The surname itself can also be a first name, but it usually serves as a diminutive of longer names rather than a legal name on its own. As a diminutive, it is typically seen as gender-neutral though, and it's also a name I absolutely am in love with, but I didn't want to have it in the given name slot because, legally speaking, it's pretty much entirely masculine (it's really only gender-neutral as a diminutive), so after checking all these boxes:

☑ 1. It starts with a J.

☑ 2. It's common as a surname in my parent's native country.

☑ 3. It's a gender-neutral name that I love to the point of having considered it as a given name.

☑ 4. It's mostly masculine when it is a legal given name, but fortunately and with point #2 considered, I was able to circumvent any worries about this by putting it in the slot of my surname, as surnames are typically not gendered.

☑ 5. It just sounds damn good!

The idea is that I really don't have a given [first and middle] and a surname [last] portion anymore. I now just see myself as having three given names that were given to me from none other than myself, but no one else would interpret it that way legally speaking, so it all worked out in the end.

Also, I'm a musician, and in my stage presence, I typically am known by my full name [first, middle, and last] entirely, in a Maynard James Keenan kind of fashion. Haha!