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I've been having a dought. It's a small nagging one but it's there.

I've been working a lot with my therapist on self hate issues, but I can acknowledge them.

I realized I can never really be in any kind of physical relationship with somone because of this. I'm repulsed by myself and perhaps my asexuality is just a result of that.

I wonder if I am so repulsed by myself that the idea of me being with anyone is rejected because of the "me" part and not how I feel towards others. Where some may think "I want to kiss that person" I can't bare the thought if subjecting somone to me in that way. And therefore the thought is gross.

Does anyone else deal with this? Any advice?

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[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Appearance is a one thing. Mostly just being fat. But i see that as debit, and I have a lot of debits including the monitary kind.

I've also had the usual sense non worth from a series of bad relationships, including an employer treating me like drone for sevreal years before firing me without any stated reason.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Same for me man, for worked like a machine 80+ hours a week then boom, see ya. Been unemployed for over a year now and haven't done anything.

I see these flaws in myself, but I usually can keep the idea that those things can eventually be fixed or work out.

Idk man, you're not alone though. There's a lot of guys like us that are not talking. It's difficult. It's not going to get sorted out overnight. I don't know what the answer is, but shit is going to happen regardless of what you do. Just try and do your best one day at a time.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

That's rough man. It seems you got the exeriance and a hell of a work ethic. But losing the job is like instant burnout. I manged to get back in my industry but never really took time to recover. And no matter how good I am now I know I'm just as expendable as last time.

Still keep learning new skills, keep networking, eventually you'll find passion for the work again.

That's that one bit of advice I can give is work for a job that's aligned with your values. I'm in a non profit now. I don't even care if they get rid of me anymore I can be happy knowing the work I am doing is helping people. That's enough to keep me working even if I'm drowning in debts.

If you can't find one that pays consider volunteering. At the very least it'll keep you sane.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

The burnout is no joke. And working so hard, giving my entire life to them, just for them to pop in one Friday to say yeah no you're gone, we need someone who isn't burnt out. That's my expectation for every job at this point.

My problem is finding a job that aligns with me. If I really wanted to I could easily get a job with the navy, Raytheon, Lockheed, Honeywell, etc. but I just can't bring myself to a part of war. The only people I've helped are delusional millionaires. I want to actually help people. I'm ready to abandon my college educated high paying career to just do something simple but fulfilling.

Fuck missiles and drones, I want to be a counselor.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

The world desperately needs more counselors If it's where you want to be I really hope you find a way into it.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I know, and it's something that I would be very well suited for, I feel. I just don't know how to find my way into it. All of my education is far away from that field, but I've always had deep interest in people, the mind, and mental health. I get imposter syndrome doing work I am very skilled and knowledgeable in, just looking at getting into counseling gives me imposter syndrome.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 year ago

That one would have a lot of volunteer opportunities. It's be a good way to network and get a sense of what you'd be getting into with far less pressure.

Though I notice some volunteer roles are a lot more demanding these days. Keep a lookout and eventually one may come along that work for you.