Philosophy

That sounds about right!

It's not really Zen to advertise Zen at people, and it can take a while to find your way into it, but I have found it helpful for showing me how life can be at once confusing and challenging and also deeply unproblematic. It doesn't hand you any doctrine or answers, so it can be very baffling at first, but if you stick with it, your world can start to open up. For me it brought back some of that simple immediacy I remembered from childhood and assumed was lost for good. Not some cheesy born-again religious thing but still, an end to the subtle but painful sense of alienation that had only worsened through years of chasing philosophy, relationships, jobs, a sense of security, etc. Be warned that there's a lot of sitting silently involved. If you're interested I'd recommend looking for a local center where you can meditate and talk to a teacher. It's not something you can do from books or practice alone, at least until you're somewhat secure in the practice.

I'm not sure anyone is, and that's worth seeing in itself. It's one of those questions where neither you nor anyone else can just hand over a satisfactory answer, but that doesn't mean there's no answer, or that it's not worth looking for one.