Asklemmy

So I've known this guy for almost 4 years and we havnt dated at all. And I've know h8m from childhood when I was 3 to 5. But in 2021 I recently met him again and we got along and started hanging out quick. He had a girlfriend and they would hang out from time to time. But his girlfriend broke up with him and I was the closest person to him after that. We would hangout all the time and we'd have alot of fun. But everynow and then we would have some intimate interactions like him holding me for a little bit when I tried to get away when he was tickling me and having fun. Even a few times I noticed that he'd get super happy and energetic to hang out with me. Also we had a few interactions were he'd just stare into my eyes and then look at other parts of my face and then he'd shortly look away but it was like his eyes were glued to my face and I felt like he wanted to kiss me. That was when him and me were 13 and 17. And then in 2022 we had hung out more and more. He hasn't acted on anything at all and it's just been 99% having fun and bonding. But I moved at the end of 2024 and we didn't keep in touch. I'd think about him everyday day. And now I'm back and I'm actually living with his family as I'm a student at a school here on scholarship. And he seems kinda distant towards me and doesn't initiate any conversations. But I notice every now and then when I say his name to ask something or to tell me something he gives me that look like he used to. Like he was happy that I said his name and he couldn't wait for me too say whatever I was gonna say. I've been trying to bridge the gap making little progress. But I notice me and him meet glances quite a few times latley. And I notice him giving me a short quick glance when he thinks I'm not looking. And I know people say it's wrong but I'm genuinely in love with him. I mean I've never felt like this for someone. I think he may feel the same but I'm not sure.