I'm lucky, I have a decent social circle, and I see them just about as often as I want. I'm just so much of an introvert that I don't often try to see anyone. I'll finish the bachelor's, and if I can do it, I'm going for an MFA after. My grades are amazing, so I'm pretty confident. The part that scares me is being without her, not the finances. I'll live in a car if I need to, I've done it before. Work night shift security and park somewhere semi safe and I'll be fine. But the idea of not having her is absolutely terrifying. My whole life she's been my best friend, and it's really scary to see her not able to get out of the bed now. I know people say their parents are their friends, but I mean it. We talk about everything, play games. Anything happens, she's my first thought. Major Mama's boy. Haha

I'm really sorry you've lost both your parents, and that it's been a rough transition. If you don't mind me asking, what kind of work do you do? If you're in the US, security pays kinda shitty, but generally above minimum wage by quite a bit, and most sites are so easy you can do whatever you want at work, video games, movies, or even college classes if you're so inclined. I wish I'd signed up for SNHU when I was still doing security, I'd have that MFA by now, but my dumbass never thought I was able to handle college until I bit the bullet during the pandemic.