chapotraphouse

They can tell themselves they are good people.

I try to remember that I'm flawed. As dumb and new age-y ridiculous as that might sound - it's useful for me. I got into an argument the other day with a Jewish lib who knew I was Jewish too so he called me a kapo, told me to fuck myself, and he wanted me to fall into a silly trap. He wanted me to answer a dumb question about Zionism so he could he could say "I knew it! You're an anti-Semite!" I didn't swear back or block him or fall into this stupid trap. He must have been very disappointed.

I had zero empathy for him - but I had a very tiny bit of sympathy. He didn't seem like the typical name calling idiot-fool. I think (or I'd like to think) it's possible that he has some level of cognitive dissounce about the genocide in Gaza. If I'm right - he knows what's happening is wrong. So instead of arguing to make a point of any kind - he's just rude and he's chomping at the bit to say "I knew it! You're an anti-Semite!" to everybody he disagrees with.

Covid showed me that a huge number of Americans working a truly bipartisan manner are awful about simple, basic measures about public health. How hard is it to be at least minimally thoughtful about public health during a goddamned pandemic? And about Gaza - I assume that guy thinks of himself as a good person like so many libs do. How hard is it to be anti-genocide? That's a level of awfulness I didn't think libs would get to.

My negativity level seems very broken. It's always set far too low. Every time. I need to Spinal Tap it up to 11. The past few years have been sad and depressing.

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This comment was far more of a downer than I expected to write. If I go grocery shopping today I'll pay the insane price for a pint of some chocolate flavor of Ben & Jerry's. That always cheers me up. LIfe. Haha.